Well, I don’t even want to bother apologising for not posting for yonks. I’m just going to get down to business and update on life in the Mao household. Benjamin is now 16 weeks and has been much, much more settled than the first 3 months. He had a rough start to life with reflux which caused him to cry and cry and cry. He was really hard to settle and we were at our wit’s end. But after starting him on medication he is much better and now even sleeps through the night – well, for 6 hours at least. We’ve started to sit him up in a high chair and it is so lovely to see him upright and looking around the world. He is very interested in his brother and stares at him wherever he is. Now that they can sit next to each other there is a lot more interaction. CJ has been a wonderful big brother, sharing all his toys (which entails putting them next to Benjy’s head in the cot or in the bouncer) and giving him loving kisses and hugs and climbing into his cot every morning. I enjoy watching this new role CJ has taken on and seeing his protective nature. He is not at all jealous which is a blessing.
Benjamin has been sucking his fingers a lot and starting to dribble now. Like his brother, he is a big boy with lots of hair. I’m not sure how much he weighs but would hazard a guess at about 7kg. My back has been worse for wear so I’m back at the physio getting traction and doing back exercises. Ben generally sleeps through the night with maybe one feed in the early morning (between 2-4am) if I don’t put a dummy in. He loves any attention he can get and smiles and laughs when people talk to him and also likes to “talk” too. He is bouncing on his own legs and has great head control. I think he looks more like a 6 month old than a 4 month-er!
Just a bit about Benjamin Evan’s birth. The stats are: 4.4kg, 52cm long and 34cm head circum. He was born on 1/2/2011 at 9:43pm after a labour that started at 1am that morning. It was an extremely hot week and that day was really scorching. I went into hospital in the morning but was told to go for a walk and come back when the contractions were harder to bear. So we tried to go to the St George RSL yum cha but were refused because I was wearing thongs (for goodness sake, I was IN LABOUR!! This is what I muttered under my breath as I stomped out). We ended up down at Blakehurst Chinese restaurant for yum cha. Most of that lunch I was squirming with pain from the regular contractions and trying not to draw any attention to myself. At least it was air conditioned and we weren’t sitting in an obvious place. I just felt like such a dag in my daggy clothes with a TENS machine hanging around my neck and grimacing in pain at each contraction. After a while I pleaded with Allan to take me home so I could at least contract in private. We got home and turned up the air-con and I had a water sprayer and towel around my head and was leaning over the ironing board. Allan would time my contractions with his iPhone app and was watching “The Pacific” as well. After a few hours I was becoming more and more vocal and he insisted we go back in. But I wasn’t sure whether I was far along to go back in so resisted his attempts to get me to ring the hospital. Finally I rang and said it was getting more difficult so they told me to come in. Allan was keen just to get in to the air-con at the hospital.
When we arrived I was still in early stages of labour which really discouraged me and I felt like I had failed reading the signs. But the nurses were reassuring and told me as soon as things got going I would probably have the baby quickly. Well, it took a few more hours and deep moans and groans and then the doctor came in to break my waters and said she would be back in about an hour when she was sure I would start pushing. I was quite scared at what I needed to accomplish in an hour – 5 more centimetres and all that pushing. I got into the bath for a few more contractions and then had to get out because it was time to push. The pushing this time wasn’t as long (2omins) but I felt it more because I hadn’t sucked in as much gas as last time so was more aware and alert. Fortunately no forceps were used and he came out into the world healthy and strong.
So that’s basically the rundown of the labour. Since then it has been a steep learning curve juggling two little dependent sons. Admittedly the first 12 weeks were really hard and I felt like I was losing the plot most days just trying to settle Ben and get CJ to be quiet or get out of mischief. It has been a blessing to have Allan around even though he has just started a new job and so has many things on his mind and heaps of adjustments to make as well. We have been supported well by our family, esp my parents who have taken me in on many occasions when I just couldn’t cope. And our new church family have been great – giving us many meals, encouraging us with their prayers and caring in many ways. I thought I would be better at mothering but most days I just feel like I am getting through okay and am happy that I’ve watered, fed and clothed each boy and got them safely into bed! It’s getting easier now with life taking on more of a “normal” feel but it still is a whole new ball game having two children. People told me this would be the case but I don’t think I really understood until now. And each situation is different according to your children and other things that are going on in life. I am thankful that God has blessed me with a wonderful husband who never complains (“it’s called ‘maturity'” he explained to me!) and has an amazing knack of being able to put the boys to sleep without screaming or getting frustrated,unlike me!
So, what’s been happening with our 25month Dotti? He is certainly growing up and speaks so much and constantly surprises us with the things he remembers and the associations he makes. He loves to share a cup of “cha cha” with me in the morning and is always asking “what are you doing, Mummy” which can get annoying every 2 seconds but indicates a desire to know and learn and absorb everything. He is now sleeping in a big bed which happened around his 2 year b’day. He transitioned much better than I anticipated and the only difficulty is him settling down for his day nap. If he doesn’t want to sleep he will jump out of bed, turn his light on and read books. We now close his door fully (before we couldn’t shut it properly because of a dodgy door handle) and so in the morning when he wants to come out he bangs on the door shouting, “Mummy, I’m awake” which is usually around 7am. CJ loves to see his cousins and Por Por and Goong Goong. He spends Tuesday nights at PP and GG’s house and goes to BSF with PP on Weds morning. Ben and I have just started back this term at BSF and even Ben now goes into the Under 2 program which allows me to actually listen to a full talk as well as participate in the discussion without children – bliss!!
CJ still loves to eat noodles and has a Chinese stomach. He loves Chinese soup and “doong goo” (Chinese mushrooms) and also enjoys dumplings. He isn’t great at using utensils which can get very messy. We go to a playgroup on Tuesdays which is lots of fun. He doesn’t tend to do much craft (the below picture of him painting was the first time he has painted – and as you can see, it wasn’t very extensive), preferring to play on the bikes or playing with the trucks and cars or reading books about trucks, cars, diggers and anything else that goes. He is fitting in more at our new church and even though he doesn’t settle well by himself in the creche he recognises lots of his friends. He is quite a soft hearted boy and likes to “po po” (hug in Cantonese) the characters in books who are sad – this might sound strange, but he holds the book up to his chest and says “ohh, poor —, CJ po po”. He also tells me when he has cried or when he is laughing or when he is scared. It is lovely to see this emotional development and also an awareness of others’ emotions and needs.
His all time favourite DVD is “Alvin and the Chipmunks” and he can sit and watch the whole movie if we let him. He also likes to watch “Peppa Pig” and “Playschool” and “The Wiggles”. I know that he shouldn’t watch too much TV but on days where I am just too tired I do find it easier just to put it on to keep him still and quiet. He is not very good at independent play and wants me to do things with him like Play Dough or tea-parties or building blocks. I try to let him run around in the yard when it’s not too cold but that doesn’t last long before he is back in wanting my attention. He does like books and reading and can actually sit for a while reading his favourite ones (Richard Scarry’s “Busy Book” is up there at the moment). He isn’t really in to drawing or using pencils/crayons/textas or stickering or doing puzzles preferring to push a trolley around or get out his diggers and trailers and cars. He is very much a boy and LOVES rough and tumbling with his daddy.
So that’s a basic summary of the past few months since Benjamin has joined our family. The fact that I have time to sit down at blog shows something – that life is getting more sane and I can even attempt to record some of the details. I don’t want to forget what Ben was like at this early stage so I thought I’d best write something before he’s 12 months. I thank God for the gift He has given us in parenting these precious boys. Both Allan and I have grown so much in the past 2 years in our dependence on each other, on others, on God and learnt what it means to put another first and to ask for patience, strength and wisdom from above. It’s just the start of our parenting journey but the steepest learning curve happens now.